Ski in mountain st. Ann , Quebec city
Dec. 29th, Wilber, Seasy and me took decision to ski for 2011 new year, this is Seasy's idea, but I decided to make a trial for something new. Wilber told me he only can go for 2 days, I am kind of force him to go for 3 days.
We have to wake up 4:30 to catch flight , after arrive quebec city, we were told luggage missing. Have to go to hotel first, sleep and eat, then, we got notice at 2:30 luggage will arrive, it was great, just after lunch.
I rent a condo, was told one bedroom on line, but found out it is a studio, bed on the wall, anyway, it is in the ski place, we have to take it.
After gear up, we went to ski at 6:30pm, -26 degree outside. I should know better The weather is not for me. Moreover, Seasy asked me to go up hill with her as she needs accompany. Man... I made a biggest mistake: we all went up to the family hill, lights are on , looks pretty, but was so cold.
Problem starts: I fall right after off the cable cart. Seasy is disappeared right away on the trial, I can see Wilber as he is like me fallen and stand up and fallen. I tried to remember how to ski, last time was 1 year ago with teacher. I keep on falling, it is hardly possible to get up, even I sit on floor, I kept on slid down, there is no snow at all, just ice, for skating, not ski. I felt many times, once, have to claw up to find my pole, after I finally stand up, I can not put ski on, tried for 10min, still not on, I remove the other one, hold on hand, start to talk, 5min later, found out can not walk, too slippery, I sit down, start to slid, put whole body on floor, slid..... Last time slid is 40years ago, I could even remember. But, 40 years later, I will definitely remember this one, 3.6km trail, I slid 1km at least, can not feel my butt. Believe there must be holes in my nice expensive ski suit. There is a lady with white cross help me to stand up asked if i am fine, do not know why i said yes, i am ok, after seeing her leave, i regret right away, finally, i saw ski do passby going uphill, my eyes Are shinny as I finally can go down when he comes back. This made me strong and can stand up take a couple of more falling. wait and wait, he never come back, oh, I saw it, he is taking snore tail and came out before me, no matter how I wave and yell, he can not see as it is dark and can not hear of course . I am desperate, this is only half way of the bloody tail. Phone was ringing when I try to get up from ice. Trying not to slid down while getting up, I do not feel cold but feel exhausted . Do not know how I manage to finish the tail, at the last of tail, I fall so hard. Dragging an exhausted painful body back to e condo, my lovely girl told me : I was waiting her for 1 hour and sent 5 ski patrol to look for you after no one answering your cell, as you never refuse to answer cell phone !
I jump into hot bath and felt so good even water is not that hot. I came out the bath, looking for pharmacy close by, I need pain killer. Store are 10min away by car, and it is time for reserved dinner. I managed to sit during the meal and ate more than normal. I fall in sleep right after till 9:00pm next day.
30th morning, Wilber drive me to pharmacy to get pain killer. Then, we cooked brunch , I made up mind to not go anywhere without a teacher , went to school, get lesson for all of us. My teacher called Paul, close to 60 years old, 55 years of ski, he even ski when he service in army. He works in mount St. Anne for over 27 years, he installed snow making machine along the tail, I was so lucky to have him. He told me the fall line. To control is to turn, separate Nubody with legs, my balance is on my head and body, leg will follow. After a while in bunny hill, I started to fell vacation first time in these days, I do not hate ski and start to control, the most important is: I did not fall . After a while, he decided to bring me uphill, after one cable, we brought me to another tail all the way to top of mountain , i did not fell scare as he is there. With the cable cart going up, I saw a heaven : frozen ocean with blue and white color like checkers, land and green trees cover with snow, fog came from snow machine , sunset adding more color to this picture. so beautiful ! Like Hawaii ! Paradise of the world. Reach the top, view is splendid , the ice cube on top of blue ocean is so incredible ! People ski down like dance, beautiful and free, like a bird. I started ski towards the paradise land.....feels so good, just remember to control, my body flying, dancing on ice, first time feel fun, finally understand why people love ski, you move without walking, trees with snow went pass by at my two sides, do not feel legs, just keep on moving towards paradise land, like in movie, sun light in front, ocean view, trees passing by. Freedom is the only true feeling, I found a hidden energy inside body, I can ski ! Fall total 4 times, he lift me up ,correct me and said : go as if I am not here. I went on my own, I ski all the way down to hill ! Never feel this 6km is long, I felt fun. Felt tears in my eyes. I am so happy, give him a big hug. He is the best teacher I can ever get ! He taught me how to control , he can tell when I was sit ! He knew I lost control, he brought me to understand the true fun and spirit of ski. It so worth it !
Seasy went with her teacher 6 times on different tail, she went to "square" tail which is hard, but most difficult one is black diamond . Mount St Anne has 2 black diamond tail , beauty and beast. I donot want to know what is it look like yet. Tail is very narrow and scarring . Wilber have a bite at home and went ski again in the night, he plays snow board, needs to learn how to fall, he insert a t shirt at butt and went again to fall . He is having fun,
I was surprise about his passion of snow board. He just cam back said he felt very hard on bunny hill at very last, have a bruce and even pain inside bone.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Dec.2011 best business
Dec. 22nd
Try to write some in Christmas is not easy, my timetable is full and i am getting so busy,
I am dealing with live lobster business, Every December, I sell between 300,000 to 500,000lb lobsters. This year is the most sales I ever done since I own my company. We finished 400,000 lb of live lobster shipping, we sent lobster to Metro, superstore's door, we serving directly about 300 stores.
Time goes so fast, world link is 7 years old already. I could not believe, I always think it is 5 years, I worked for ACC only for 4 years and I felt it was not long time ago. Now this world link is 7 years. World link is named by me. I tried all the name start with Atlantic, light house, Martine time, all used up. I had to choose one, I choose based on my long distance phone company's name. This was my baby since then, my life and my happiness . I could have 2nd kid if not work so hard. Now this company is mature and ready to leave me.
This is a smooth December , business grow 40%. George's is sick and choose not to do much. I am the one taking loads and shared with my employee . Up to now,I tried to find a balance point between running business smooth and take people's attitude. I have a pride and never can bend over, now, istrted to thnk bend over is a wrong word, to treat people heart to heart , or have a big heart is the right word, I don't know how exactly go there yet, but hopefully after this holiday I will have time to think over and reach there.
Like a bamboo, go where the wind is but never break .
I was nerves when 26th comes, 26th is Monday, the new years week, we need to ship 140,000lb which is same as the normal monthly volume. most courier company close and reopen only 28th, we have to run a truck to get the space to ship on 26th night, 28th, packed 70,000lb a day, workers did not sleep for 48hrs, keep on packing, peoples wants to quit when they know have to come again on 28th night packing for 29th shipping . I put 30 ton in Purolator flight, it is the most I ever done in my life. This is an achievement . Mileage stone of my shipping history.
On top of this, everything went smooth, no big mess up. I am so happy to go on vacation with putting business behind . This is the only time. For this, I have to say thanks to all the employee.
Try to write some in Christmas is not easy, my timetable is full and i am getting so busy,
I am dealing with live lobster business, Every December, I sell between 300,000 to 500,000lb lobsters. This year is the most sales I ever done since I own my company. We finished 400,000 lb of live lobster shipping, we sent lobster to Metro, superstore's door, we serving directly about 300 stores.
Time goes so fast, world link is 7 years old already. I could not believe, I always think it is 5 years, I worked for ACC only for 4 years and I felt it was not long time ago. Now this world link is 7 years. World link is named by me. I tried all the name start with Atlantic, light house, Martine time, all used up. I had to choose one, I choose based on my long distance phone company's name. This was my baby since then, my life and my happiness . I could have 2nd kid if not work so hard. Now this company is mature and ready to leave me.
This is a smooth December , business grow 40%. George's is sick and choose not to do much. I am the one taking loads and shared with my employee . Up to now,I tried to find a balance point between running business smooth and take people's attitude. I have a pride and never can bend over, now, istrted to thnk bend over is a wrong word, to treat people heart to heart , or have a big heart is the right word, I don't know how exactly go there yet, but hopefully after this holiday I will have time to think over and reach there.
Like a bamboo, go where the wind is but never break .
I was nerves when 26th comes, 26th is Monday, the new years week, we need to ship 140,000lb which is same as the normal monthly volume. most courier company close and reopen only 28th, we have to run a truck to get the space to ship on 26th night, 28th, packed 70,000lb a day, workers did not sleep for 48hrs, keep on packing, peoples wants to quit when they know have to come again on 28th night packing for 29th shipping . I put 30 ton in Purolator flight, it is the most I ever done in my life. This is an achievement . Mileage stone of my shipping history.
On top of this, everything went smooth, no big mess up. I am so happy to go on vacation with putting business behind . This is the only time. For this, I have to say thanks to all the employee.
Dec. 2011 2nd week in Halifax
Dec. 10th
Back to Halifax flight delay delay to bad wind in Halifax, wake up 6:00am and left NY at 2:00pm. on Thursday,
Friday I was busy,to work, took lots of orders and very happly, for 5 years I wanted to get DSD orders from Loblaw, I got it again finally for world link. Partial my own company.
Seasy had badminton Friday night,I went to chat with Xiao li. Last time we chat was 3 month ago. It was good always to connect with friends. She care about me a lot and I can tell her everything. Time past so fast, before I realize, it is 11:00 already, I run to home, Seasy is already there.
Hi, this beautiful house, without Seasy is nothing. I live this house a lot, keep on putting all my extra time in keeping the house in right shape, however,of let so empty when Georges is not there, can not help to think Huang wen when I was alone, when he is here, house is better. I did everything I can to make a good house, but for whom? Seasy is one, the man I love is another reason, I felt bad he is not here, does not matter how I try to keep the house nice. It had no meaning. He is busy to keep 3 house, indeed the quality of my life discount when I need to go grocery alone under the rain. He was not there and will never be there. But he needs to go grocery, I was always there.
I really need to think about myself, to find a balance and know heat I truly need before I comments on my life. He Edward a money machine, I trust him blind as he is making it domes not matter how he spend. But, now, I have concer, as I do not believe with less input on business you can get more. His priority now is health, business goes 3rd or 4th. With a sick body, he needs to running between 3 house and business, it's a lot for him.
I will have to learn more on business so I can take care of myself and ny business. By any chance things go bad on His health, I need to know how to read book how to keep it going, from tomorrow, I will ask him these part and secure the money I made first. I want to setup meeting with accounting and lawyer to see what is the best t o do.
Back to Halifax flight delay delay to bad wind in Halifax, wake up 6:00am and left NY at 2:00pm. on Thursday,
Friday I was busy,to work, took lots of orders and very happly, for 5 years I wanted to get DSD orders from Loblaw, I got it again finally for world link. Partial my own company.
Seasy had badminton Friday night,I went to chat with Xiao li. Last time we chat was 3 month ago. It was good always to connect with friends. She care about me a lot and I can tell her everything. Time past so fast, before I realize, it is 11:00 already, I run to home, Seasy is already there.
Hi, this beautiful house, without Seasy is nothing. I live this house a lot, keep on putting all my extra time in keeping the house in right shape, however,of let so empty when Georges is not there, can not help to think Huang wen when I was alone, when he is here, house is better. I did everything I can to make a good house, but for whom? Seasy is one, the man I love is another reason, I felt bad he is not here, does not matter how I try to keep the house nice. It had no meaning. He is busy to keep 3 house, indeed the quality of my life discount when I need to go grocery alone under the rain. He was not there and will never be there. But he needs to go grocery, I was always there.
I really need to think about myself, to find a balance and know heat I truly need before I comments on my life. He Edward a money machine, I trust him blind as he is making it domes not matter how he spend. But, now, I have concer, as I do not believe with less input on business you can get more. His priority now is health, business goes 3rd or 4th. With a sick body, he needs to running between 3 house and business, it's a lot for him.
I will have to learn more on business so I can take care of myself and ny business. By any chance things go bad on His health, I need to know how to read book how to keep it going, from tomorrow, I will ask him these part and secure the money I made first. I want to setup meeting with accounting and lawyer to see what is the best t o do.
Dec.2011 1st week : back to NY
Dec. 6th
Yesterday lunch, we ate at rockville center with the biggest chritmas tree and a skate ring. Last night we went to eat Chinese, there is a dish called " Hunan beef" from center china, he ordered as " human beef" , I have so much fun with him.
He went to scan for the growing in dark thing, doctor said this nuclear liquid can stay with all cancer cells in anywhere of the body. They can see them all with the 2 hours scan .
This morning, we were fight to get toilet, doctor asked him to clean belt before scan, he drinker coffee for first time in 2 month and sit there for long time, I have to pull him. Up and sit down then, he switch back to sit . That was never happen before.
He went to get scan, I was busy dealing with business . December always lots of things to handle. Then, I went back to same korean place for my fence nail, ruby lives in US for 20 years, still doing nail. I felt very lucky have set up my company in 10 years and do not have to live that way.
Met him in hospital, lunch time, he insisted to bring me to the set sushi at 5th avenue, we walked and walked, his direction is so bad that we can never find it of course, ate at Rockville center lobby, very nice. Does not have to walk in rain no more. Went to shop at Macy's, got his best shoes" Calvin klain" , only $90. Cheap shoes never work on him , he can find hundreds reason to decline, this one he likes it right away, this made me think he is too sick to accept everything now. He needs a rest. Went back to hotel, gets ready for the show tonight : chinglish. Best seats, great show, just love it. Majority people watch are white people, Chinese indeed has a great impact now on everyone's life, more attention is switching to Chinese, even for normal people.
He has to be back for scan tomorrow. Have to delay flight. Rebook hotel, I decided to stay at " wordoff Astoria", and a deluxe room. In fact , after I checked on, o got a suit. It is beautiful, 2 bath room, antique furnishing. Marble, heavy curtain and towel, conformable sheet and bed, I started to fall in love with NY. If I rent this room, only need $300 per day for a year, maybe we do it after we sell the company. There is too many things you can don when youndo not have to worry about money .
Dec.7th, he went to hospital again, I did business, lots of orders, very busy and I always only feel good when I settle down business and knew I made money before I spend it. It rain very hard outside, we moved to wrodoff Astoria for lunch. His meal : meat from baby pig feed by mother's milk. My meal : stone crab cake. Fantastic taste.
He went to room for rest : big surprise for him, feels like a king, he never want to move an inch one he arrived room, just want to stay inside. I went to get Christmas gift for Seasy. Took subway: only 1 station away from grand centre, at exit, I found a lovely holiday market inside terminal. Many nice holiday gifts, I really enjoy all these little surprise from NY. Wants to buy everything : got a amoroso wool scarf with love pattern : all kinds of language of "love" , really warm. I have to go back with Georges tonight before the show.
Show is at 8:00pm , sister act, 1681broadway theater, he booked the best seafood restrauant in NY : oceana. Googled only 8min. From wardoff Astoria. Raining hard outside, we decided to talk to restrauant, it is impossible to get a taxi. Walked along 49th street, pass the Rockville center, see the Christmas tree and all decoration again. Pain in my foot, happy in eyes. 20min later. Finally arrived.
His meal : octopus with asian source, mine : whole doranna fish from caribbean.
Oyster again with steamer clam with Champagne. Dessert: soufflé . We were talking about rent suit 1 month at wardoff astroia. it costs 30k each, but even can rent out as 2 toilet, 2 rooms. It is cheaper , nice and all furnished. Waiter came asked us " what time is for show" , we laughed : what life can better than this.
As my plan, we took metro to the show, google map gave the direction at 23rd street, I was wondering why this thither is so far. Took metro, no time to grand center , it is really a shame, arrived 23rd/ broadway, talked at both side, only see 1120, no time left, rain very hard, we called a taxi again. Driver kept on saying "kill me" when we told him address, I almost fight with dire for his attitude, have to play game to cool down. 15min. Still on taxi,
Georges said :"hi, we arrived 53street",
"what?" must be driver cheat us to drive in long way , i am about to loose temple and driver said he arrived ! It is time square ! The stupid google was wrong and completely mislead me. I am late forth show, 3 min. Georges is very happy As he told me since day one no metro, no subway and I never listen. The first time I took metro with him i was wrong with no reason.
Show was always great, primer seat, I can see all the details from the singer. Very funny. Finished at 10:30, we walked back to hotel ! 49th street, heavy wind, umbrella flip over all the times, see girls in high heels, Anke feet, walked in rain, just out from party, see 20 young man singe Christmas sound under biggest Christmas tree... Pasted Oceana ( dinner place ), past Sake, he is still looking for the best restrauant, I am so upset and said " look, this is one, I can point out so many Japanese restrauant, stop looking ! They all good."
" this is the one!"
" no way, do not lie, you've been looking for the restrauant for 3 days, you just want to tell me there is one exist! If this is the one, then , whenever you lost staff, come to Mel, I will just point it out for you! Can not be anyone that I randomly point , you lie"
" I will prove you with recipe in my office. "
Looks like, we did found the restrauant . The one we walked for 2 days, my kenneth Cole shoes went wet , my coat wet in the rain, I still pain when walking....
New York, full of surprise, what can I say.
Woke up next day, 6:00am to catch flight. Arrived airport, flight delay 1:30hour. Went on board . Polit said : flight cancelled. Got a flight 2hrs later. Now I am onboard. Just enough time to catch up with my blog.
Halifax has wind over 70km/hour, flight cancelled due to weather. new York here, sunny and over 14 degree again, like spring, really hope can off plane again, so I can stay in wardoff Astoria one more day and buy my wool blanket at grande center. Have to be back to here.
Love this city. No choice.
Yesterday lunch, we ate at rockville center with the biggest chritmas tree and a skate ring. Last night we went to eat Chinese, there is a dish called " Hunan beef" from center china, he ordered as " human beef" , I have so much fun with him.
He went to scan for the growing in dark thing, doctor said this nuclear liquid can stay with all cancer cells in anywhere of the body. They can see them all with the 2 hours scan .
This morning, we were fight to get toilet, doctor asked him to clean belt before scan, he drinker coffee for first time in 2 month and sit there for long time, I have to pull him. Up and sit down then, he switch back to sit . That was never happen before.
He went to get scan, I was busy dealing with business . December always lots of things to handle. Then, I went back to same korean place for my fence nail, ruby lives in US for 20 years, still doing nail. I felt very lucky have set up my company in 10 years and do not have to live that way.
Met him in hospital, lunch time, he insisted to bring me to the set sushi at 5th avenue, we walked and walked, his direction is so bad that we can never find it of course, ate at Rockville center lobby, very nice. Does not have to walk in rain no more. Went to shop at Macy's, got his best shoes" Calvin klain" , only $90. Cheap shoes never work on him , he can find hundreds reason to decline, this one he likes it right away, this made me think he is too sick to accept everything now. He needs a rest. Went back to hotel, gets ready for the show tonight : chinglish. Best seats, great show, just love it. Majority people watch are white people, Chinese indeed has a great impact now on everyone's life, more attention is switching to Chinese, even for normal people.
He has to be back for scan tomorrow. Have to delay flight. Rebook hotel, I decided to stay at " wordoff Astoria", and a deluxe room. In fact , after I checked on, o got a suit. It is beautiful, 2 bath room, antique furnishing. Marble, heavy curtain and towel, conformable sheet and bed, I started to fall in love with NY. If I rent this room, only need $300 per day for a year, maybe we do it after we sell the company. There is too many things you can don when youndo not have to worry about money .
Dec.7th, he went to hospital again, I did business, lots of orders, very busy and I always only feel good when I settle down business and knew I made money before I spend it. It rain very hard outside, we moved to wrodoff Astoria for lunch. His meal : meat from baby pig feed by mother's milk. My meal : stone crab cake. Fantastic taste.
He went to room for rest : big surprise for him, feels like a king, he never want to move an inch one he arrived room, just want to stay inside. I went to get Christmas gift for Seasy. Took subway: only 1 station away from grand centre, at exit, I found a lovely holiday market inside terminal. Many nice holiday gifts, I really enjoy all these little surprise from NY. Wants to buy everything : got a amoroso wool scarf with love pattern : all kinds of language of "love" , really warm. I have to go back with Georges tonight before the show.
Show is at 8:00pm , sister act, 1681broadway theater, he booked the best seafood restrauant in NY : oceana. Googled only 8min. From wardoff Astoria. Raining hard outside, we decided to talk to restrauant, it is impossible to get a taxi. Walked along 49th street, pass the Rockville center, see the Christmas tree and all decoration again. Pain in my foot, happy in eyes. 20min later. Finally arrived.
His meal : octopus with asian source, mine : whole doranna fish from caribbean.
Oyster again with steamer clam with Champagne. Dessert: soufflé . We were talking about rent suit 1 month at wardoff astroia. it costs 30k each, but even can rent out as 2 toilet, 2 rooms. It is cheaper , nice and all furnished. Waiter came asked us " what time is for show" , we laughed : what life can better than this.
As my plan, we took metro to the show, google map gave the direction at 23rd street, I was wondering why this thither is so far. Took metro, no time to grand center , it is really a shame, arrived 23rd/ broadway, talked at both side, only see 1120, no time left, rain very hard, we called a taxi again. Driver kept on saying "kill me" when we told him address, I almost fight with dire for his attitude, have to play game to cool down. 15min. Still on taxi,
Georges said :"hi, we arrived 53street",
"what?" must be driver cheat us to drive in long way , i am about to loose temple and driver said he arrived ! It is time square ! The stupid google was wrong and completely mislead me. I am late forth show, 3 min. Georges is very happy As he told me since day one no metro, no subway and I never listen. The first time I took metro with him i was wrong with no reason.
Show was always great, primer seat, I can see all the details from the singer. Very funny. Finished at 10:30, we walked back to hotel ! 49th street, heavy wind, umbrella flip over all the times, see girls in high heels, Anke feet, walked in rain, just out from party, see 20 young man singe Christmas sound under biggest Christmas tree... Pasted Oceana ( dinner place ), past Sake, he is still looking for the best restrauant, I am so upset and said " look, this is one, I can point out so many Japanese restrauant, stop looking ! They all good."
" this is the one!"
" no way, do not lie, you've been looking for the restrauant for 3 days, you just want to tell me there is one exist! If this is the one, then , whenever you lost staff, come to Mel, I will just point it out for you! Can not be anyone that I randomly point , you lie"
" I will prove you with recipe in my office. "
Looks like, we did found the restrauant . The one we walked for 2 days, my kenneth Cole shoes went wet , my coat wet in the rain, I still pain when walking....
New York, full of surprise, what can I say.
Woke up next day, 6:00am to catch flight. Arrived airport, flight delay 1:30hour. Went on board . Polit said : flight cancelled. Got a flight 2hrs later. Now I am onboard. Just enough time to catch up with my blog.
Halifax has wind over 70km/hour, flight cancelled due to weather. new York here, sunny and over 14 degree again, like spring, really hope can off plane again, so I can stay in wardoff Astoria one more day and buy my wool blanket at grande center. Have to be back to here.
Love this city. No choice.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Go to Emergency
December 5th, Arrived new York, went to hospital " nuclear center" , he got eject with a secret needle : something stored inside a big lead bottle, now, he can not sty with little kid or pregnant woman, he is radiation , can not pass security of course, he will be growing in dark, I may not make love with him, I do not want to have a shunning downstair in the night, I only west shirt here . Geoffery is asking if his pee grooming tonight !
We will be back tomorrow for scan.
My taxi needs 30 min to pharmacy, I took time to write during the ride.
Last time we stop at my daughter is coming:
Friday , I check the schedule and map, ready for seeing my daughter, so excited, called Seasy, she is very excited too, I told her mark sure cell is on so I can find her after landing.
Afternoon, his pain start at right lower side, i called surgeon group, no explanation, doctor has no idea. Pain kepts increasing , I can feel from the wrinkle in his face. 7pm, getting worse, 3 morphine pills can not stop, we went to emergency, this is the worse place I ever seeing, people crying, yielding, complaining, my head got so big, after 1 hour waiting, we went inside, he got a bed to lying done, his pain increased, I covered curtain, he started to cry. I can not imagine what pain can cause this man cry, I run to doctor try to get help, you know what: doctor can not find nurse to give him a shot for pain killer. Nurse is too busy. The other side of curtain is a black lady, she shout out loudly for nurse to come, she is complaining for the pain, After hours of hearing this and seeing georges painm i got such annoying about her and ready to step her with a knife.
After chasing doctor, our surgeon doctor came and got upset with emergency center: the chaos here is like a circles , he moved Georges bed to a quiet place so he can rest and finally found nurse. His pain reduced after nurse inject morphine , I was happy, but doctor said " the fact, georges is awake and smile means he is in a serious pain, as this morphine can make an elephant sleep."
He was moved out for scan, another night, no sleep, in the middle of crazy place, I just wish never come back again, I asked to be moved back to 11 west.
No way I am going to pick up Seasy today ( early mooring ), I called Wilber 2:00am, with tears in my face : cancel the trip for Seasy. I felt so hurt inside and so sad, felt like I lost my daugter, I paid very high price for my love. It indeed costs me . Next time, I believe I will choose kid. This time, I felt pain in my heart.
His result came back, next day, we saw our surgeon group again, it was a clot in liver. Like pinky size, big clot. Hr needs to take a shot a day for 3 month, we left 11 west and went to buy the needle : need $7000. Now, I realized the importance of insurance. But, this and hospital bills is not covered as we are in US.
We moved back to mamara, paid a private nurse to come in, costs $120 for a shot, now, we have to learn to do needles, I am so happy I grow up in hospital and saw this daily, I have no fair about giving needle to other, I choose butt as I saw when I was kid. Nurse said use leg or belly which I never heard of.
We will be back tomorrow for scan.
My taxi needs 30 min to pharmacy, I took time to write during the ride.
Last time we stop at my daughter is coming:
Friday , I check the schedule and map, ready for seeing my daughter, so excited, called Seasy, she is very excited too, I told her mark sure cell is on so I can find her after landing.
Afternoon, his pain start at right lower side, i called surgeon group, no explanation, doctor has no idea. Pain kepts increasing , I can feel from the wrinkle in his face. 7pm, getting worse, 3 morphine pills can not stop, we went to emergency, this is the worse place I ever seeing, people crying, yielding, complaining, my head got so big, after 1 hour waiting, we went inside, he got a bed to lying done, his pain increased, I covered curtain, he started to cry. I can not imagine what pain can cause this man cry, I run to doctor try to get help, you know what: doctor can not find nurse to give him a shot for pain killer. Nurse is too busy. The other side of curtain is a black lady, she shout out loudly for nurse to come, she is complaining for the pain, After hours of hearing this and seeing georges painm i got such annoying about her and ready to step her with a knife.
After chasing doctor, our surgeon doctor came and got upset with emergency center: the chaos here is like a circles , he moved Georges bed to a quiet place so he can rest and finally found nurse. His pain reduced after nurse inject morphine , I was happy, but doctor said " the fact, georges is awake and smile means he is in a serious pain, as this morphine can make an elephant sleep."
He was moved out for scan, another night, no sleep, in the middle of crazy place, I just wish never come back again, I asked to be moved back to 11 west.
No way I am going to pick up Seasy today ( early mooring ), I called Wilber 2:00am, with tears in my face : cancel the trip for Seasy. I felt so hurt inside and so sad, felt like I lost my daugter, I paid very high price for my love. It indeed costs me . Next time, I believe I will choose kid. This time, I felt pain in my heart.
His result came back, next day, we saw our surgeon group again, it was a clot in liver. Like pinky size, big clot. Hr needs to take a shot a day for 3 month, we left 11 west and went to buy the needle : need $7000. Now, I realized the importance of insurance. But, this and hospital bills is not covered as we are in US.
We moved back to mamara, paid a private nurse to come in, costs $120 for a shot, now, we have to learn to do needles, I am so happy I grow up in hospital and saw this daily, I have no fair about giving needle to other, I choose butt as I saw when I was kid. Nurse said use leg or belly which I never heard of.
After surgery
Looks like most time I ha e for blog is in the air, I am flying Again to new York for his check up. Now I have 2.5 hours.
We still did not know what exactly he has, today, december 4th, we go to have the full scan for 3 days see how many cancer cell he has inside body.
Contious to Last time, we moved to a condone called ", 2 bedroom, a kitchen, close to hospital,he barely can move when we took the taxi, every bumping of taxi shows in his painful face. I have to run to pharmacy to get all kinds of pills and daily grocery before I can see the room. He called said room is horrible, I called superintendent to bargain at 400/day price so we can get a better room. Finally,when I got all the stuff and arrived room, I was happy: room is not bad at all.
I am not a cook, specially to cook for a chef, basically , I learned everything in a day about what to do and did it. He was not complain, food is simple, he can not eat a lot, congee and soup, we got skirt beef, he wanted to gain weight and survive, force himself to eat. On top of the food o cook. I can feel his pain when he drinks too fast, brb and fat, sometimes a surprise shout ad he is in pain. But he made up his mind to eat as much ad he can to survive.
Next day, oct 25th, we went back hospital to check the wound . Surgeon found it is puffy and pink : little infection inside and decide to open the wound to clean. the lady asked me to hold his arm, then, started : succors / knife , hand squeeze , blood , yellow liquid came out, his head moving, shaking, my hand felt pain from his squeeze , his foot shaking back and forth. Doctor stuff a cloth in between of wound and .... Thanks god, it is done, he is sweating.....
Seeing him in pain, I start to believe movie : some FBI use pain to breaks down spy's nerve and let them tell the truth. It really works.
Went back to hotel, bought some gaze to clean him, blood still came out from the wound, we found a plastic bag, cut at side, flat the bag and stick in his belly so the can take shower. He wet to sleep, I called office, doing business . I booked ticket to china, have a seafood show I must attend and I did not see my daughter for 3 weeks, I got to see her before china trip. I never miss het that much in my life. But, Georges can not fly back he needs to stay in new York, I called Wilber see he can fly Seasy over to see me. Ticket round trip costs $3000 for weekend, but return trip only costs 300 o Monday, Wilber did not agree she miss school to see me. My tear is coming out and heart is broken when I hear is and doe first time I told him : I will take full custody of Seasy if you refuse to let her go. Seasy is excited to come alone and made the plan for this. Finally, Wilber agreed . I will pick up Seasy on Saturday morning in airport, I am so excited.
Now, He is so nerves about any type of pain now, for needle for blood, no one can touch him , he will feel pain too. Just hope nothing can cause him more pain now.
Airplane just landed, he is telling me a story : the examine result tomorrow will be very good, his pancreas is growing back ! Hospital will pay him to fly once a month to check up. He will say no: Sara must come too. First class or 4 star hotel. Hospital will agree as they get a rare case. 2 years later, hospital will say sorry : pancreas grow back was another tumor, now you dead. I laugh so hard.
We still did not know what exactly he has, today, december 4th, we go to have the full scan for 3 days see how many cancer cell he has inside body.
Contious to Last time, we moved to a condone called ", 2 bedroom, a kitchen, close to hospital,he barely can move when we took the taxi, every bumping of taxi shows in his painful face. I have to run to pharmacy to get all kinds of pills and daily grocery before I can see the room. He called said room is horrible, I called superintendent to bargain at 400/day price so we can get a better room. Finally,when I got all the stuff and arrived room, I was happy: room is not bad at all.
I am not a cook, specially to cook for a chef, basically , I learned everything in a day about what to do and did it. He was not complain, food is simple, he can not eat a lot, congee and soup, we got skirt beef, he wanted to gain weight and survive, force himself to eat. On top of the food o cook. I can feel his pain when he drinks too fast, brb and fat, sometimes a surprise shout ad he is in pain. But he made up his mind to eat as much ad he can to survive.
Next day, oct 25th, we went back hospital to check the wound . Surgeon found it is puffy and pink : little infection inside and decide to open the wound to clean. the lady asked me to hold his arm, then, started : succors / knife , hand squeeze , blood , yellow liquid came out, his head moving, shaking, my hand felt pain from his squeeze , his foot shaking back and forth. Doctor stuff a cloth in between of wound and .... Thanks god, it is done, he is sweating.....
Seeing him in pain, I start to believe movie : some FBI use pain to breaks down spy's nerve and let them tell the truth. It really works.
Went back to hotel, bought some gaze to clean him, blood still came out from the wound, we found a plastic bag, cut at side, flat the bag and stick in his belly so the can take shower. He wet to sleep, I called office, doing business . I booked ticket to china, have a seafood show I must attend and I did not see my daughter for 3 weeks, I got to see her before china trip. I never miss het that much in my life. But, Georges can not fly back he needs to stay in new York, I called Wilber see he can fly Seasy over to see me. Ticket round trip costs $3000 for weekend, but return trip only costs 300 o Monday, Wilber did not agree she miss school to see me. My tear is coming out and heart is broken when I hear is and doe first time I told him : I will take full custody of Seasy if you refuse to let her go. Seasy is excited to come alone and made the plan for this. Finally, Wilber agreed . I will pick up Seasy on Saturday morning in airport, I am so excited.
Now, He is so nerves about any type of pain now, for needle for blood, no one can touch him , he will feel pain too. Just hope nothing can cause him more pain now.
Airplane just landed, he is telling me a story : the examine result tomorrow will be very good, his pancreas is growing back ! Hospital will pay him to fly once a month to check up. He will say no: Sara must come too. First class or 4 star hotel. Hospital will agree as they get a rare case. 2 years later, hospital will say sorry : pancreas grow back was another tumor, now you dead. I laugh so hard.
Sep to Oct. 15th
I finally start blog, a way to slow done my busy mind, laterly, my life get busy again. Specially this past 1 month. Feel like a day, no time for anything, too many things happen together.
I have a boy friend, I am still trying to finger out what is family . What is love, what is normal life, poon.....he got cancer. I never can put cancer together with my life, my parents all over 75 years old and still health. I thought being separate is the biggest thing in my life. Now this is a real one in front of me.
He was in pain for a couple of years, March, he removed gallbladder . September physical check found tumor at pancreas , October has surgery removed 35% of pancreas and whole spleen . 10 days later, result came he got the pancreas cancer and 5 years left. I never believe he can be sick, he always strong and healthy. No one can convince me he gets cancer. Now, I start to accept the fact finally and try to live with it.
Here is the my busyest month of life.
Sep. Of every year, , we go to Toronto medican for check up, We did check up together, then, we went hawaii . We scheduled to be in 3 islands during 1 week-stay. First island is Maui, stay in a 5 star hotel beach front, it is a suit, huge room with ocean front, walk from lobby to hotel's own beach , eat in restrauant beach front with sunset. Sleep with ocean wave's sound , a big sugar cane factory is the only industry in this island besides tourist . You can smelt sugar cane burning from 20miles away.
2 days later, we went to kauii, I choose the hotel this time from feeling, it was better than Maui, At bottom of the hill, we drove under shadow of trees, arrived a hidden hotel. Talked through huge and long hallway, we arrived our building, Hotel has residents for time share. A couple of buildings together. Almost every room has ocean view. Walk to beach. The private beach hotel own connect with a curise terminal, from my room, I saw curise came in from middle of 2 mountains, passing hotel beach, park at wharf. kauii is world best surf place. Wave goes as high as 48meter, i saw people surf every day. There is green grass behind beach, palm tree grow in middle . Some people lying under palm tree shade and enjoy wind from beach . Not only with best view, Our room has kitchen, we plan to buy fresh sea food and cook,
Helicopter tour is a must for visiting island, some area is not develop, you can not go, liken forbidden beach-- a gold sand beach. Only 20,000 resident in this island, all apartment start 1,4 million. People are lay back and enjoy life there. Helicopter opened the beauty of island : this is world most raining place, rain amout yearly around 1 meter.we saw beaches, land with pound, canyon, world most wet place is middle of mountain, mountain filled with green , many water fall like silver thread hanging together, beautiful flower on trees. Robin family lives at foot of mountain helicopter as transportation. Also, we saw a path, Hollywood filming movie "dynasal" , " priorates at caribbean" . Many movies was filmed here since 1930's . I felt inside movie when I am in site these place. Water fall formed river, lots of wedding daily on these river curise inside world most beautiful place.
We also went to a "horse whistle", a groupe of rock like mountain in front of beach, when ocean water came , it went to holes inside rock, then, came out spray to sky, very powerful, made a huge noise. Very impressive,
There are lots of mixed asian nationality here. Food is mix sure of Asian and north america food everywhere, delicious.
However, he got sick, in hawaii , i have to cancel ticket to big island for volcano, need to fly back to halifax direct.
when we back to halifax, doctor said he should go right now write will as only 3 to 6 month left. He went to do everything with lawyer and choose surgeon doctor at same time. Oct 6th, we went to new York mount sinal hospital. Doctor stayed with us for 30min and said 50 to 75 % is cancer. I started to believe he has something very serious. But do not believe he is dying in 6 month.
Oct.14th for surgery. I will remember these feeling in my life. Still feel too much to write them all done up to now.
First, He chose me to go with him for surgery. Many peiple asked him why it is me. Myside, i never think about anyone else but me to go. His family, himself all believe he has cancer, I do not. Moreover, surgery survival rate is high, but, pancreas cancer survival ratio for over 6 month is 5% or less . He is hoping to get 6 month life from this surgery.
12th , he went back home to say bye to family. Then, He gave me a list of people to notify after surgery. We had a little fight : he wanted me to call his wife first, his ex-girl friend 2nd. I felt it is nonsense to put exgirl friend in front of his mum and son. Anyway, he can not control the way I do things.
13th, flew to new York, ate at little Italy area, he told me where the security box key, how to handle money etc. Somehow none of these words went into my mind as I do not feel he will die tomorrow at all. Believe or not 13th night, I was calling customer and handling business till very late. Do not feel this is the last night with him.
14th 7:00am arrived hospital, up to this moment, no any check up from hospital, we asked nurse: do you know Georges blood type ? Then nurse started to do some blood work and few check. I grown up in hospital for 17years, never believe for such a big surgery, in US hospital, preparation is just nothing. He went in operation room, I told he needs 3 hours . I settled private room at 11 west and started to wait . I made a calling list, study on line to make my question list to doctor. 3.5hrs later, no news, I called nurse. 4hrs later doctor said he is coming over to see me.
My head spin very fast : doctor came to see me in my room! 100% chance bad news. My GOd, why I took this mission and promise to call, how am I going to tell boys they lost father! I felt so nerves and have to sit down, put napkin box beside to wait for doctor. Felt hard to breath and hand starts sweat, another 30min. Doctor walked in, my eye starts to 模糊, he sat down with big smile, i tried hard to concentrate with grasp the question list with my hand, his voice came from far away like from sky: we got the whole tumor out, tumor like an orange,soft, i did a quick look for biopsy , final result will needs 6 days, but I believe it has nothing to do with pancreas cancer. It is a big tumor. He does not need keno therapy. He will recover very soon .
I was astonished and starring at him, silent, he smile and repeated it again to me. My tears came out before my words, first time in my life, I felt there is a God right in front of me. He still smiling and keep on telling me it is good, it is a miracle what Georges has, finally, I relived and gave doctor Labow a big hug. I jumped up and down. Man, I truly felt joyfull in my whole body.
I called everyone, told them the good news. First is Lilly, I could not say anything when phone is connected, my tears came out, after couple deep breath, I told her the news.
I called everyone, really everyone, then I went out room, told nurse, reception . They told me: there is very few news like this here. It is a miracle . We came here for 6 month of life. Now it is not cancer !
I did not realize he is already a part of my life till now, when I wrote done everything, I did not believe I already mixed him in my life, I did not think anything else but his health, even his family. I did lost myself in loving him.
Reception at 11west helped me to found him, I bypass the regulation, went to see him myself. He looks so weak, thin like paper, pale, all kinds of pipe like a net above his body. Smell like dead body. I still can not stop my happiness, look at him with big smile. Told him: you are fine, it is all good, you made a mircle! He is so weak, doctor moved him to extensive care room, 6 patient in 1 room, liver transfer , heart surgery.....his heart started to beat faster 97. 100 when machine making noise, I convinced doctor to move him to another room: only him and 1 more patient . I finally can look at him , he has pipe inside noise, mouth, belly even a huge pip inside his sex. iV is morphine to stop pain. I hold his hand just feel happy he is alive. 1st night, he slept in extensive care room.
Next day, he moved to 11 west, I put a bed beside his bed started my nursing. Never did it before, but I just have it by seeing everything when I was a baby. I wake up many times in the night , take care whatever he need , do everything even to clean up his poo. Besides, I monitor business, talked to office daily as new season started.
Just 2 days after , oct.16th I am still happy he is alive, no cancer, he started to move around with all kinds of bottle in the stand, I push the stand, he walk slowly around 11west, he said he needs to call family, never talk to them yet, I ga e him the phone, right after he spoke with lily (only 2 to 3 minutes), his heart started to beat very fast, can not control, I brought nurse, took shots, still remain beating fast, all the doctor cameos, room is full, I hold his hand, felt he is leaving me, his voice is low, but I can hear clearly he Said " Sara, I am seeing you down from air. Remember let me go completely if I become vegetable ."
Doctor van not explain why heart went wrong heart beat stay at 140 to 160. His face pale , he is very sensitive about any noise. Heart doctor came, moving him to heart intensive care , I followed. When we move in heart department, a big alarm ringing all the time, like ambulance noise, doctor / nurse in and out. I felt like in the middle of a war. Draw blood, ejection, more IV, doctor said: no explanation for what cause this, 3 way may stop this, they tried 1st at 11west did not work, now, they tried 2nd here, the last is to do electric shot if we agree. I clearly said :No, one one can put that 2 piece of metal on this heart, at is used to kill people, not to save them. I prey God he can cure before the 3rd step. He was taking to do heart scan. It already 2am, he got scanned very fast and back to room. Finally he can sleep a little, but, nurse still come In every hour and big alarm still ring outside room, I went out to find out what it is : there is many screen display the heart rate of all patient here, any heart rate over 120, ihe alarm will ring automatically . No one can stop it. When geodes moved in, heart rate was 148, that is why all doctor went to our room. He is a bump! His heart can explore anytime.
We spent 1 day here, he did react to the 2nd medicine, heart slow down to 110. Oct.17th, Fabian , Geoff arrived with fabian's relative. I flew 2 boys hearer as he miss them. They live at Fabian relative's home and stay for 2 nights. Georges is very happy to see boys but too weak to say anything. They inky stay for 10min. And he has to go sleep,next day, we moved back to 11 west.
Everything is fine at 11 west but the nurse, the skill is bad on IV, his arm, hand all full of needle mark and bruise . One bruise is so big and pain that nurse has to do specially treatment. During surgeon . Nurse put a big needle for IV, he kept it for few days and 11 west nurse did not realize it should be replaced, after 4 days, it got infection , big pink limp in the arm.
Nurse gave him 2 muffin to stop his pain, he hold a button, push button once he felt pain and morphine will be released to IV. We all waiting for his fat, once he can fat, we can leave hospital, I never know the "gad passing through is so important to human". At this stage, No fat, no life, he kept on brb and felt so pain in his belly ad no gad passing. 5th day after surgery still no gas, doctor started to use medicine to make it happen. He is asked to walk more, but, i saw so much pain even he is in bed, when we do not know how to stop pain, I hold him up for a walk, walk did help him to reduce the pain. Sometimes, when pain comes, he tried so hard to brb, sit , stand up, it really hard for me to see him just be in pain, nothing anyone can do yo help. 2 IV morphine plus a shot morphine, he got the max dose already, still in pain. Finally, Gas came, we were so happy to hers the noise! Never so happy before for a fat ! But this time, a real happiness.
After gad passing, he allowed to eat a little regular food. For first time, we took elevator went to 1st floor to see outside, we found a canteen and bought some food he likes , this trip costs him a lot, we spent long time , maybe an hour. Have to stop when his pain comes.
He never scare about die, it will be a real peace for him, but, he is fighting so hard to survive for the 6 boys . He demonstrated me how hard to live and how strong can a person be in order to live.
One week past, oct. 22nd, we still at 11 west, patient come and go, we still here, next door moved in an old man with a pretty young wife, in fact, 11 west costs 1000 dollar a day, I saw many rich man here sick, young pretty wife accompany. Lots of time, I can tell from 1st floor that the lady is going to 11west, they dress nice, heavy make up.
Anyway, the wife chat with everyone , old man looks very sick on bed, 23rd night, i wake up by a lady's loud crying and screaming , the first reaction is old man died, i was scared and went to his small bed. Crying for a while then stopped, i guess they moved dead body. Could not sleep the whole night.
Next day, nurse came i , told us they have to take 2 shots a month to against all kinds of sickness inside here and we are lucky we did not get mote sick. ....man.....we requested to leave hospital right away.
Oct, 23rd, 10days later, we moved to condo with kitchen in new York, he still needs to be checked by doctor , get needle.
I have a boy friend, I am still trying to finger out what is family . What is love, what is normal life, poon.....he got cancer. I never can put cancer together with my life, my parents all over 75 years old and still health. I thought being separate is the biggest thing in my life. Now this is a real one in front of me.
He was in pain for a couple of years, March, he removed gallbladder . September physical check found tumor at pancreas , October has surgery removed 35% of pancreas and whole spleen . 10 days later, result came he got the pancreas cancer and 5 years left. I never believe he can be sick, he always strong and healthy. No one can convince me he gets cancer. Now, I start to accept the fact finally and try to live with it.
Here is the my busyest month of life.
Sep. Of every year, , we go to Toronto medican for check up, We did check up together, then, we went hawaii . We scheduled to be in 3 islands during 1 week-stay. First island is Maui, stay in a 5 star hotel beach front, it is a suit, huge room with ocean front, walk from lobby to hotel's own beach , eat in restrauant beach front with sunset. Sleep with ocean wave's sound , a big sugar cane factory is the only industry in this island besides tourist . You can smelt sugar cane burning from 20miles away.
2 days later, we went to kauii, I choose the hotel this time from feeling, it was better than Maui, At bottom of the hill, we drove under shadow of trees, arrived a hidden hotel. Talked through huge and long hallway, we arrived our building, Hotel has residents for time share. A couple of buildings together. Almost every room has ocean view. Walk to beach. The private beach hotel own connect with a curise terminal, from my room, I saw curise came in from middle of 2 mountains, passing hotel beach, park at wharf. kauii is world best surf place. Wave goes as high as 48meter, i saw people surf every day. There is green grass behind beach, palm tree grow in middle . Some people lying under palm tree shade and enjoy wind from beach . Not only with best view, Our room has kitchen, we plan to buy fresh sea food and cook,
Helicopter tour is a must for visiting island, some area is not develop, you can not go, liken forbidden beach-- a gold sand beach. Only 20,000 resident in this island, all apartment start 1,4 million. People are lay back and enjoy life there. Helicopter opened the beauty of island : this is world most raining place, rain amout yearly around 1 meter.we saw beaches, land with pound, canyon, world most wet place is middle of mountain, mountain filled with green , many water fall like silver thread hanging together, beautiful flower on trees. Robin family lives at foot of mountain helicopter as transportation. Also, we saw a path, Hollywood filming movie "dynasal" , " priorates at caribbean" . Many movies was filmed here since 1930's . I felt inside movie when I am in site these place. Water fall formed river, lots of wedding daily on these river curise inside world most beautiful place.
We also went to a "horse whistle", a groupe of rock like mountain in front of beach, when ocean water came , it went to holes inside rock, then, came out spray to sky, very powerful, made a huge noise. Very impressive,
There are lots of mixed asian nationality here. Food is mix sure of Asian and north america food everywhere, delicious.
However, he got sick, in hawaii , i have to cancel ticket to big island for volcano, need to fly back to halifax direct.
when we back to halifax, doctor said he should go right now write will as only 3 to 6 month left. He went to do everything with lawyer and choose surgeon doctor at same time. Oct 6th, we went to new York mount sinal hospital. Doctor stayed with us for 30min and said 50 to 75 % is cancer. I started to believe he has something very serious. But do not believe he is dying in 6 month.
Oct.14th for surgery. I will remember these feeling in my life. Still feel too much to write them all done up to now.
First, He chose me to go with him for surgery. Many peiple asked him why it is me. Myside, i never think about anyone else but me to go. His family, himself all believe he has cancer, I do not. Moreover, surgery survival rate is high, but, pancreas cancer survival ratio for over 6 month is 5% or less . He is hoping to get 6 month life from this surgery.
12th , he went back home to say bye to family. Then, He gave me a list of people to notify after surgery. We had a little fight : he wanted me to call his wife first, his ex-girl friend 2nd. I felt it is nonsense to put exgirl friend in front of his mum and son. Anyway, he can not control the way I do things.
13th, flew to new York, ate at little Italy area, he told me where the security box key, how to handle money etc. Somehow none of these words went into my mind as I do not feel he will die tomorrow at all. Believe or not 13th night, I was calling customer and handling business till very late. Do not feel this is the last night with him.
14th 7:00am arrived hospital, up to this moment, no any check up from hospital, we asked nurse: do you know Georges blood type ? Then nurse started to do some blood work and few check. I grown up in hospital for 17years, never believe for such a big surgery, in US hospital, preparation is just nothing. He went in operation room, I told he needs 3 hours . I settled private room at 11 west and started to wait . I made a calling list, study on line to make my question list to doctor. 3.5hrs later, no news, I called nurse. 4hrs later doctor said he is coming over to see me.
My head spin very fast : doctor came to see me in my room! 100% chance bad news. My GOd, why I took this mission and promise to call, how am I going to tell boys they lost father! I felt so nerves and have to sit down, put napkin box beside to wait for doctor. Felt hard to breath and hand starts sweat, another 30min. Doctor walked in, my eye starts to 模糊, he sat down with big smile, i tried hard to concentrate with grasp the question list with my hand, his voice came from far away like from sky: we got the whole tumor out, tumor like an orange,soft, i did a quick look for biopsy , final result will needs 6 days, but I believe it has nothing to do with pancreas cancer. It is a big tumor. He does not need keno therapy. He will recover very soon .
I was astonished and starring at him, silent, he smile and repeated it again to me. My tears came out before my words, first time in my life, I felt there is a God right in front of me. He still smiling and keep on telling me it is good, it is a miracle what Georges has, finally, I relived and gave doctor Labow a big hug. I jumped up and down. Man, I truly felt joyfull in my whole body.
I called everyone, told them the good news. First is Lilly, I could not say anything when phone is connected, my tears came out, after couple deep breath, I told her the news.
I called everyone, really everyone, then I went out room, told nurse, reception . They told me: there is very few news like this here. It is a miracle . We came here for 6 month of life. Now it is not cancer !
I did not realize he is already a part of my life till now, when I wrote done everything, I did not believe I already mixed him in my life, I did not think anything else but his health, even his family. I did lost myself in loving him.
Reception at 11west helped me to found him, I bypass the regulation, went to see him myself. He looks so weak, thin like paper, pale, all kinds of pipe like a net above his body. Smell like dead body. I still can not stop my happiness, look at him with big smile. Told him: you are fine, it is all good, you made a mircle! He is so weak, doctor moved him to extensive care room, 6 patient in 1 room, liver transfer , heart surgery.....his heart started to beat faster 97. 100 when machine making noise, I convinced doctor to move him to another room: only him and 1 more patient . I finally can look at him , he has pipe inside noise, mouth, belly even a huge pip inside his sex. iV is morphine to stop pain. I hold his hand just feel happy he is alive. 1st night, he slept in extensive care room.
Next day, he moved to 11 west, I put a bed beside his bed started my nursing. Never did it before, but I just have it by seeing everything when I was a baby. I wake up many times in the night , take care whatever he need , do everything even to clean up his poo. Besides, I monitor business, talked to office daily as new season started.
Just 2 days after , oct.16th I am still happy he is alive, no cancer, he started to move around with all kinds of bottle in the stand, I push the stand, he walk slowly around 11west, he said he needs to call family, never talk to them yet, I ga e him the phone, right after he spoke with lily (only 2 to 3 minutes), his heart started to beat very fast, can not control, I brought nurse, took shots, still remain beating fast, all the doctor cameos, room is full, I hold his hand, felt he is leaving me, his voice is low, but I can hear clearly he Said " Sara, I am seeing you down from air. Remember let me go completely if I become vegetable ."
Doctor van not explain why heart went wrong heart beat stay at 140 to 160. His face pale , he is very sensitive about any noise. Heart doctor came, moving him to heart intensive care , I followed. When we move in heart department, a big alarm ringing all the time, like ambulance noise, doctor / nurse in and out. I felt like in the middle of a war. Draw blood, ejection, more IV, doctor said: no explanation for what cause this, 3 way may stop this, they tried 1st at 11west did not work, now, they tried 2nd here, the last is to do electric shot if we agree. I clearly said :No, one one can put that 2 piece of metal on this heart, at is used to kill people, not to save them. I prey God he can cure before the 3rd step. He was taking to do heart scan. It already 2am, he got scanned very fast and back to room. Finally he can sleep a little, but, nurse still come In every hour and big alarm still ring outside room, I went out to find out what it is : there is many screen display the heart rate of all patient here, any heart rate over 120, ihe alarm will ring automatically . No one can stop it. When geodes moved in, heart rate was 148, that is why all doctor went to our room. He is a bump! His heart can explore anytime.
We spent 1 day here, he did react to the 2nd medicine, heart slow down to 110. Oct.17th, Fabian , Geoff arrived with fabian's relative. I flew 2 boys hearer as he miss them. They live at Fabian relative's home and stay for 2 nights. Georges is very happy to see boys but too weak to say anything. They inky stay for 10min. And he has to go sleep,next day, we moved back to 11 west.
Everything is fine at 11 west but the nurse, the skill is bad on IV, his arm, hand all full of needle mark and bruise . One bruise is so big and pain that nurse has to do specially treatment. During surgeon . Nurse put a big needle for IV, he kept it for few days and 11 west nurse did not realize it should be replaced, after 4 days, it got infection , big pink limp in the arm.
Nurse gave him 2 muffin to stop his pain, he hold a button, push button once he felt pain and morphine will be released to IV. We all waiting for his fat, once he can fat, we can leave hospital, I never know the "gad passing through is so important to human". At this stage, No fat, no life, he kept on brb and felt so pain in his belly ad no gad passing. 5th day after surgery still no gas, doctor started to use medicine to make it happen. He is asked to walk more, but, i saw so much pain even he is in bed, when we do not know how to stop pain, I hold him up for a walk, walk did help him to reduce the pain. Sometimes, when pain comes, he tried so hard to brb, sit , stand up, it really hard for me to see him just be in pain, nothing anyone can do yo help. 2 IV morphine plus a shot morphine, he got the max dose already, still in pain. Finally, Gas came, we were so happy to hers the noise! Never so happy before for a fat ! But this time, a real happiness.
After gad passing, he allowed to eat a little regular food. For first time, we took elevator went to 1st floor to see outside, we found a canteen and bought some food he likes , this trip costs him a lot, we spent long time , maybe an hour. Have to stop when his pain comes.
He never scare about die, it will be a real peace for him, but, he is fighting so hard to survive for the 6 boys . He demonstrated me how hard to live and how strong can a person be in order to live.
One week past, oct. 22nd, we still at 11 west, patient come and go, we still here, next door moved in an old man with a pretty young wife, in fact, 11 west costs 1000 dollar a day, I saw many rich man here sick, young pretty wife accompany. Lots of time, I can tell from 1st floor that the lady is going to 11west, they dress nice, heavy make up.
Anyway, the wife chat with everyone , old man looks very sick on bed, 23rd night, i wake up by a lady's loud crying and screaming , the first reaction is old man died, i was scared and went to his small bed. Crying for a while then stopped, i guess they moved dead body. Could not sleep the whole night.
Next day, nurse came i , told us they have to take 2 shots a month to against all kinds of sickness inside here and we are lucky we did not get mote sick. ....man.....we requested to leave hospital right away.
Oct, 23rd, 10days later, we moved to condo with kitchen in new York, he still needs to be checked by doctor , get needle.
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